Quarantine

Time is precious. The time we have with each other, our work, our life, and on making a change. We can never go back and that has been a constant reminder in my head. So what can I do today to make good use of this time given to me? What can I say to myself to help me move along? Time is what you make of it and regardless of who you are, it won’t wait for you to keep up. I’ve become more aware of that throughout quarantine and it’s still a learning process. 

 

March 13, 2020, was the fated day and it's been a year since quarantine started. I enjoyed the tiny joys in life in the beginning, it began with the whipped coffee, family walks, Tiger King, or whatever other Netflix show was trending. I didn’t feel the stress of school, of my responsibilities, or life in general. I wasn’t stepping out of the tiny bubble I lived in because I felt content in where I was and of my place in the world. It wasn’t until I began to see past what I was comfortable with when I began to change. You can’t be comfortable at the expense of someone else’s comfort. I shouldn’t have to bring down my own culture and race for others to be happy with theirs. And I should be proud of who I am without bringing others down. These were such basic ideas that I had lost touch with over time. I’ve begun to learn that with each action we choose to take, we change a bit of our lives for better or for worse. We are in control of our own lives and blaming others for the hardships in our life won’t take it away. I’ve matured and taken control of who I want to become and it’s up to me to push my agenda forward to achieve this goal. I can’t waste this precious time, I have to teach others, to make myself better, and to improve in areas I lack in. 

 

However, life is always full of struggles and mine is no different. I still struggle with lazing around, procrastination, and the idea that living in the present is the only way to live because the future hasn’t happened yet so might as well be happy now. Being motivated all the time isn’t easy and making drastic changes in my life wasn’t either. There are days when I wish time would stop and that days would be longer and I could find pleasure in the tiny things again. But time is constantly moving and I can’t keep waiting around for someone else to give me a push. My future is dependent on me and only I can choose what happens with it. 

 

With quarantine, I’ve learned that there comes this sense of power from knowing the fact that every person makes a difference in this world including myself. It’s the baby steps that help us make great strides to our goal and with the knowledge that the world is so much larger than this tiny bubble I live in, I’m just barely starting to grow. Because with time, I know I will move forward toward a better future.